breaking news!

i can move my big toe.

not very far and not with any degree of speed, but shore nuff, i command it to move and it moves. then i request for it to go back and it goes back.

its almost a true wiggle.

i actually noticed this 'progress' two days ago and now i knkow ur asking, why didnt he post about it two days ago.

well i've been working on perfectingmy new toe movement. we called lil successess like that 'tricks' in the rehab hospital.

i had to make sure it wasnt a fluke and i wanted to test and retest until i was sure i wasnt seeing things.

thing is, i dont really feel it moving. it might well have been moving for the past few months and i just never saw it.

i've also been working on getting all my toes to move and turning my foot askew, coz then i can wear shoes again.

needeless to say, im rather excited bout my toe moving on command.


...hmm wonder if i should bore my fans with a video....

peace

gonna try a pushup soon

just about 20 minutes ago, and for no partucular reason i decided to see if i could manage a light switch. i succeeded and then spent the next 15 minutes or so, rather giddy, much too giddy for a man alone in his home, to be legal, anyhoo, i hobbled around my house gleefully turning on and off every light switch in the house.

did i mention 'using my 'bad' arm? the paralyzed arm. the left arm and hand.

perhaps i had something in my right hand and didnt feel like putting it down.

the next part of this post should be me explaining how i got by before and the significance of this feat, but im really not all that much into typing at the moment.

let me just say it involves me not wantng to sell my bowflex. stubborn? maybe?

peace

i got to thinking

what if im in a coma. and if that is the case, when and how did it happen. i mean ive been close to death a few times in my life. what if it was a much closer close call than i thought. what if that truck actually rear ended me with much more damage to the car and to me.

no one i talk to in this 'coma world' would know, they are actually 'out' sitting by my bed, reading novels to me and getting all the kids to sing songs.

now i doubt this is the case, but 'if' it is, how the fuck do i wake up and if i do, will i be compelled to blog about the experience?

peace

few things i miss

running - i dont have the fight or flight option currently. had a bull chase me not too long after discharge. lil dog saved me. i think i peed, dont rightly recall

sex - these are in no particular order

eating ice cream

long hot showers - standing that is.

live poker tournreys - i signed up for a charity event coming up in october.

work related responsibilty - not really.

dressing up - i suppose my pops or my friend could and would help me, but there hasnt really been an occassion.

peace