what is hell, anyway....

i recall a time, while in rehab, asking myself. what if i've died and gone to hell. and then, what if hell is nothing more than a conyinuation of your own miserable, pointless life.

no one can really know, right? even those that are convinced they know what hell is, i like to call them zealots ot cultists. they like to call themselves 'catholics'.

hell is just what an individual creates in his or her own imagination, right?

so that could very well mean one persons hell prolly is not as bad as another persons hell.

in my hell there are people that say stupid things like ' this is just gods way of telling you to slow down'.
or worse
'at least your not dead'. well fuckity fuck if i arent dead.

i hear things like you need to get out more, or try walking around the block..it will do you wonders, you'll see. and i want to stab them wondering if that would do me wonders. im in hell right, they are not really here, what harm could it do.

but then again, perhaps i am in purgatory. that place you go while god decides what to do wit ya.

peace